Monday, September 7, 2009

1:08 AM

zzzz
feel so weird....
feel like sad....
but yet cnt cry....
am i sad....?
or am i juz thinking to much?
or am i sad cuz i am thking to much....?

or wateva i am feeling so dam weird nw....
dunno if i shld b happy or sad today....
zzzz
so annoying zzzz


i seem to b able to do everything very well whn i am happy,
every single thing
be it concern me or concern my friends....
but being happy is hard....
it very hard....
very dam hard.....
though i wish i cn b happy everyday....
i cnt seem to....
i knw i appear very happy,hyper, cheerful to sme ppl(which i dun thk so....)
but is it really what i feel?
truely?
juz thk alrite....


zzzz....
idk abt this....
it so random....
smetime whn i am sad i will juz emo....
n whn emo i cn do my work quite well smetime....
bt yet sme time...
no1 being cn live alone without team mate rite....?
or mayb am i juz special....?
so special tat i am born to work alone....nt a soul to even talk to?
which way am i born to be?
i truely dun knw....

i nvr wish to be sad....
bt it alway draw into me on it's own....
mayb i am juz born this way....
but thr really isnt must different in work whn i am sad or happy....
the true different lie in my attitude....
tats the main point....
whn i am happy....
i am like nutz fire shooting all about....
but whn i am sad....
no1 will knw what im thinking....
or maybe thr is one tat knw hw i feel....?


<~>
born so soul
soul cuz born....
will this line always stick with mi....
my whole life....?
or will it maybe end on a point....?
i really dunno....
born to soul....
with soul meaning sole....
n soul cuz born....
meaning sole cuz my born.....
am i truely born to sole....?
though i dun wish this is my life....
but perhap it's my life....


i hope sme1 cn tell mi hw i shld feel on this very day 7th september
if u really knw the answer....
plz tell mi....
ur answer may mean little to you....
but alot to mi....
thk.....


i hope u do gv sme ideas also....
cuz i will also affect you....
ur lv....
n none the less....
your moves n steps....

i will never let you go (: